You sound like you may have depression/anxiety. Don't be ashamed, you should tell your parents, teacher or school nurse. Depression is an ilness to be taken seriously - an illness is an illness psycholigical or physical. It may not be depression so don't try to diagnose yourself online - you need to talk to somebody.

I really should tell you now, you are not ugly. You are probably seeing it that way because your mood is so low. You are beautiful, trust me :) If you want to talk to somebody, you could call the Samaritans on 08457 90 90 90. They will literally talk about anything and listen to your problems.

Please don't kill yourself! Life has a purpose. I know exactly how you feel. I've had depression for about 3 years now and anxiety since I was young, (I am 17) so believe me when I say - it gets better-
After you reach the peak of your low mood you should start to feel better again, it comes in cycles.

Your not stupid, you are an intelligent, miracle of a human being who came to exist in an infinite universe of amazingly beautiful things. Even if you feel the world is cruel - remember the beauty of existence. Cry if you need to, remember to let it out. And please tell somebody.. don't hurt yourself, don't suffer sweetheart.

If our happiness is dependant on our own choices in life and not external factors then life itself doesnt have much point does it?

When given the option "You're for us or against us" what is your gut instinct?

Are you willing to be part of a group?No dissent, no discussion, no difference of opinion?

Many variables affect our communicational skills and opportunities.

Cultural,educational,biological and environmental variables always affect communication and the conveyance of messages.

When one becomes aware of the mechanisms by which these variables function one can take control of them and use them in his favor to convey a successful message.

No goal is certain,
but we'll leave a mess behind,
and mother nature will do her thing,

without the human being,
peace will reign!
may a monkey in a swing

curse me out..

my last goal will be a smile,
like a demented grimace more like,
but smoke and that's all..